I had a dream I was smoking again last night. I liked it, of course I know it would take me WAY back into that addiction again (its been 15 years). I won’t start smoking again. Also, personal development is so funny. There are times when our brains are like “nope, not today, we are staying riiiiight where we are and why don’t you put that depressing TOOL album back on while you’re at it” other days I’m in full on growth mode and feel unstoppable. I think you’re smart to listen to your intuition. You’ve overcome a lot and, in the future, will overcome even more.
Crank it up - Break Up With Your Girlfriend, YayYa! Cause I am Bored, then 7 Rings (your face comes to my head when I listen to this song). Hmmmm...better watch that in the basement with the music video! LOL! You are so brave...I love you.
So true! Growth is a lot of work and so many times, loving who we are now is hard. I have a friend who’s New Years resolution was to not “improve” herself or do personal development. It was confronting for me at first, but now I LOVE the project.
Was that friend me? 😂 kidding. But I’d love to know more about that that change looked like for her. Did she read romance novels instead of self-help books? Did she start drinking coke and abandon her green juice? I need the protocol.
From what I understand, she's keeping her same habits and not adding on anything else. She's not taking any courses to learn new stuff, and she's reading more fiction. Not sure if it's specifically more romance, but that's my go to when my brain feels like mush and I don't want to think about anything.
It’s like we hit some certain age where “growth” becomes our full-time job. Maybe it’s a natural response…I don’t know. I’m tired too. Self-improvement fatigue. My 19-year-old son does (street) LSD as therapy and I’m afraid for him. Life is hard, but I find a hard life to be normal. Let’s stop overcorrecting it all the time and just let it be what it is. Emerge gently, ya know. Please shut me down if these stories are not meant to be conversations. Thanks for sharing.
"Let's stop overcorrecting." ---> yep, I feel you Amber. Emerging gently feels so much nicer. Also, there are lots of test kits available online, which I'm sure you already know. But it might give you some peace.
This diversity of feelings in these different situations cannot go away. But like the kaleidoscope, you will always have a burst of light.
I had a dream I was smoking again last night. I liked it, of course I know it would take me WAY back into that addiction again (its been 15 years). I won’t start smoking again. Also, personal development is so funny. There are times when our brains are like “nope, not today, we are staying riiiiight where we are and why don’t you put that depressing TOOL album back on while you’re at it” other days I’m in full on growth mode and feel unstoppable. I think you’re smart to listen to your intuition. You’ve overcome a lot and, in the future, will overcome even more.
PS. I think we've been riding the same roller coaster.
I'm glad you got to vicariously enjoy smoking through me, Robin. Come back anytime.
Crank it up - Break Up With Your Girlfriend, YayYa! Cause I am Bored, then 7 Rings (your face comes to my head when I listen to this song). Hmmmm...better watch that in the basement with the music video! LOL! You are so brave...I love you.
Maybe you should make me a playlist 🙏🏼 or invite me to the basement sometime ❤️
So true! Growth is a lot of work and so many times, loving who we are now is hard. I have a friend who’s New Years resolution was to not “improve” herself or do personal development. It was confronting for me at first, but now I LOVE the project.
Was that friend me? 😂 kidding. But I’d love to know more about that that change looked like for her. Did she read romance novels instead of self-help books? Did she start drinking coke and abandon her green juice? I need the protocol.
From what I understand, she's keeping her same habits and not adding on anything else. She's not taking any courses to learn new stuff, and she's reading more fiction. Not sure if it's specifically more romance, but that's my go to when my brain feels like mush and I don't want to think about anything.
It’s like we hit some certain age where “growth” becomes our full-time job. Maybe it’s a natural response…I don’t know. I’m tired too. Self-improvement fatigue. My 19-year-old son does (street) LSD as therapy and I’m afraid for him. Life is hard, but I find a hard life to be normal. Let’s stop overcorrecting it all the time and just let it be what it is. Emerge gently, ya know. Please shut me down if these stories are not meant to be conversations. Thanks for sharing.
"Let's stop overcorrecting." ---> yep, I feel you Amber. Emerging gently feels so much nicer. Also, there are lots of test kits available online, which I'm sure you already know. But it might give you some peace.
No, I didn’t know that… I’m on it!